原来。。 我变了。。

it's been a long time since i last update.. too many happenings.. too many happy and sad moments..
the happy moments are of course with all my best friends, from birthdays to christmas, to trips to kl, penang and also chinese new year house visiting! lazy to update but those are the best moments.. still remember camwhoring with Shia and Zoe in parkson fitting room.. man that was hilarious!! and also finally.. i'm driving on the streets!! yeah.. and my first passenger - Sing Tze.. aheheh.. thanks for being so brave to take the killer ride from taman tunku to pelita!! hahhaaa!!
those are the days where i feel i am greatly loved and cared for..

returning to adelaide hasn't been a great time...
and it's all because of...
a stupid argument..
which led to...
cold fights.. cold treatment.. boycotting... upsets... tears... and tears... and still tears..

i thought...
"forgive and forget" will solve the icy situation..
but... as the weather outside gets colder, my heart is freezing as well..
warm words are greeted with "oh", "ya", "mmm"...
no communication at all..
its like living in hell.. only its much worse than hell..
cos being in third year means a busy hectic schedule.. with labs and reports and assignments due... it's just the first week.. but i'm already preparing for week 3 stuff.. sigh~~
will get used to it i supposed..
to the daily 8am classes.. until 6pm for tues and fri...
bread as main food when i don't feel like cooking..
instant mee as main dinner...
i hate.. cooking and eating by myself...
but..
i guess i will just look for another room..
i didn't cause it was expensive in the city for one bedroom, else its too far (i've got 8 am -6pm classes, dont want to live to far), most importantly, i'm too lazy to move out where i "used to be" very comfortable..
i thought we could make it out.. but hmm... no such thing as forgive and forget.. as yihua says.. only forgive and overlook.. only this time.. it was not overlooked...
i didn't realise I am that hard to live with... sucks badly..

sigh.. anyone looking for a housemate??

i feel bad..