butterfly wings

people say, when people die, their souls will return in the form of moths.. and it seems quite true, cos after each deaths, i will see butterflies/ moths flying about..
since then, everytime i see a moth, those fluttering wings stabs my heart with prickles of pain.. cos in the flapping wings, i see you, being at my side always, keeping watch over the silly sister who is weak at heart..

i saw one flying into my room today.. and it clung on to the curtain and kept still..
did u come and visit me, to see how i am coping with all these exam and internship stress? or to keep me company knowing my housemate is going to overnight elsewhere? or is it because u realized i have too many conflicting feelings today, and came, to remind me, to calm down, to remember, there's always you to lean on?

i miss you, dearest Lan.

i've been wanting to vent out my stress and emotions since the beginning of the exams.. after seeing the wavering wings flying past me, the water tap turned on full..

and now, i feel relieved..

thanks..


** emo-ing **
exams sucks..