fallen leaves

nah, i don't really know what season is this now.. supposedly to be autumn, but then it gets too warm like summer of 32C, then sometimes it gets so cold like winter of about 20C?? and nope, havent seen any leaves falling yet or turning golden yet.. all's still green and vibrantly colourful.. so hmm, we r getting to the end of summer, beginning to the season of golden autumn and falling leaves yeah?

it's 3 weeks into my final year.. and i'm so dead tired since the commencement of this sem.. nothing much happening actually, but i'm still busy everyday.. i thought giving up the post of secretary in Rushi will actually lessen things that I've to bothered bout, but nah, i wasn't doing my job since last year, so resigning merely just clear off some of my socializing issues, which in turn, makes me happier =)! less to care, less to worry!!

can't say im career focused.. i mean, the "Apply JOBS" tasks has been on my notebook since february, but i never have the heart to update my resume and start applying.. I've browsed through the list of companies, known some deadlines, but i just.. cant make myself to apply for the jobs.. sigh.. too bothersome, too frustrating, hate interviews, hate the blank periods when someone ask me a question and i dono how to answer but can only crap hell.. sigh.. don like the idea of, im going to work 9to5 once im in the OFFICE.. ok, maybe not 9to5, maybe its 12to12, maybe its not in the office, probably in some sangkala factory which is hours away from the city.. owhhhh.. i don wanna work!! ive been planning to travel somewhere.. but never got the time for it.. cry!!!! my gold coast, tasmania, new zealand, japan, korea and europe trip.. when can i go???? so I allocated today to start applying for jobs, but all ive done since morning is.. facebook, ppstream n now blogging.. muahyahahahhaah!! stay focus!!

so what's so happening in my life that i don get to sleep well every night last week?
1. Heart issues..
love the song Issues by The Saturdays.. and Breath by Alesha Dixon.
ahahhaa.. i thought i was in deep trouble for liking someone but this feeling isnt mutual. so erm, after much discussion with a lot of my frens, guys and gals alike, i've come to the conclusion that, habits are hard to break, and that i just need someone to talk to, cos i don't hold any ROmAntic Dreams about him. lol! ok, glad that i surfaced myself from the frens/lovers dilemma =P!

2. Post-Vac Work Obligations
sigh.. i wrote a report. met the supervisor for an hour. edit the report. send it in. wait. 20 mins presentation with all the super intelligent experienced wise professionals with only 5 slides. darn.

im nervous! not prepared. feeling stupid. cant breathe. even just writing the report, i dono how to discuss bout it.. cos its seriously a field i do not know!!! never learnt bout zeta potential before, how am i suppose to discuss what happened to it? why does the graph shows such a trend??? and my supervisor din talk me also.. sigh.. im dead.. every thursday i;ve to look at the report and edit it till 2am haih..
and my awesome plan of asking BHP Biliton to fund for my Honors Project is poof!!!, gone.. i think?? was supposed to receive an ans on mon, but no reply yet though i sent in an email on wed.. sob!!

nothing more to complain about d.. hahahaha

some destressing events i've indulge in:
1. Amococo with tze and colin frens
2. Skyshow with Tze during clipsal night
3. sing K with elyn n tze
4. watch Friends everytime i'm at home..
5. eat eat eat..

muahahaa..

u cant find a more depressing + boring unistudent life update than this right?? i don wanna work!


hahahaha..