不想。不想。什么都不想！

funnily enough.. people around me are all concerned bout their love life..
n i;m kinda devastated when i read a shocking news：my lovely dears are all thinking bout marriage d!! while i'm.. stil building a barrier in my heart?? to not fall in love or think bout love stuff at this point of time when there's so many responsibilities to juggle??! owh.. shyte.. makes me look desperate doesnt it?
does being committed means..
1. i nid to follow him wherever he goes?? he go mexico i also hv to follow him there even though we r not married yet?? just randomly giving an example..
2. if he goes out to yamcha, i nid to take down who he is going out with and whether his frens will make him drunk or not?!
3. i nid to intro him to my frens and always bring him out wherever i go??!
4. i nid to show concern of him at all times.. i.e. sms / call him to say :: i miss you?
5. have to da ban pretty pretty when going out with him??
6. have to spend money cos nid to make phone calls n eat out or go shopping??!
7. i dono wat else..

the thing is.. i;m too busy to think of relationships.. let alone long term ones.. marriage.. is too far for me..
my fren says tat i'm piling all the bricks up and not inviting anyone into my heart..
it was to.. prevent myself from falling onto the wrong one..
my parents told me.. the best age to pato is after uni... my seniors all tell me.. GRAB ONE IN UNI! lolz..
the price of one mistake was too great for me to make the same mistake again..
before i was immature.. now i;m still immature..
i don nid a bf to get happy.. contented.. cos i've got all my best friends who are way too precious for me! >.< sulking.. kla. i;m half desperate cos hear so many ppl happily tied down to a guy..
but rational thinking tells me.. tis is SOO NOT THE TIME YET.. tis yr is a yr of responsibilities! of achievements! of personal and group accomplishments!
so lor.. enjoy SINGLE BUT UNAVAILABLE LIFE as much as I can!!

flu flu flu.. i've heard bout mexico swine flu.. but don worry.. i;ve been vegetarian for the past few days.. n i take seafood nia.. no pork ingested.. so mine's just a common flu.. :)

again.. all the best to suehui n zoe in their finals!
thanks to kerrie and nicole and elyn and tc and yenshin for taking care/being there/ bring med for me when i'm sick.. even a phone call also lightens up my mood a lot!!
hee! love ya all!